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Chapter 1
Chapter 1: Arrival
The chalet emerged from the snow like a postcard Jessica had seen a thousand times but never quite believed existed. Three stories of timber and glass perched on the mountainside, smoke already curling from the chimney where the property manager had started a fire before their arrival. She pulled the rental SUV into the circular drive and killed the engine, letting the silence of the mountains settle around her.
"Jesus Christ," Brad said from the passenger seat, leaning forward to peer through the windshield. "You really outdid yourself, Jess."
She allowed herself a small smile. Six months of planning, countless phone calls, a deposit that had made her physically ill to transfer. But looking at the chalet now, at the way the afternoon light caught the icicles hanging from the eaves like crystal chandeliers, she knew it had been worth it.
"The others should be here within the hour," she said, checking her phone. Two bars of signal—more than she'd expected this far up the mountain. "Heather and Paul are about thirty minutes out. Greg texted from the gas station in town."
"And Richie?"
"Richie will get here when Richie gets here."
Brad laughed, but there was something tight in it. There had been something tight in everything between them lately—their conversations, their silences, the careful way they moved around each other in their too-large house. This weekend was supposed to fix that. This weekend was supposed to fix everything.
They hauled their bags inside, and Jessica felt the tension in her shoulders begin to unknot. The interior was even better than the photos: vaulted ceilings with exposed beams, a stone fireplace large enough to stand in, floor-to-ceiling windows that framed the mountain like a living painting. The kitchen gleamed with professional-grade appliances, and a hot tub steamed on the wraparound deck, already heated and waiting.
"I'm going to do a walk-through," she said, already moving toward the stairs. "Make sure everything's set up."
"Jess." Brad caught her arm, his grip gentle but insistent. "It's going to be fine. Everyone's excited to be here."
She met his eyes—blue as the winter sky, the same eyes that had made her fall in love with him twelve years ago at a frat party where the music was too loud and the beer was too warm. Back then, he'd seemed like the answer to every question she'd never known to ask. Now she wasn't sure what he was.
"I know," she said. "I just want everything to be perfect."
She didn't say what they were both thinking: that perfect had stopped being possible five years ago, on a night much like this one, on a mountain not so different from this.
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Heather and Paul arrived first, their rental car pulling up just as the sun began its descent behind the peaks. Jessica watched from the window as they climbed out—Heather first, her red hair catching the fading light, then Paul a moment later, moving with the careful deliberation of a man trying not to start a fight.
They weren't touching. They hadn't touched in the three photos Heather had posted during their drive up, and they didn't touch now as they retrieved their bags from the trunk. Jessica had heard the rumors, of course. Everyone had. But seeing it in person, the careful distance between them, the way they oriented their bodies away from each other even while standing side by side—it made something ache in her chest.
"They're here," she called to Brad, who was unpacking groceries in the kitchen.
"Great. I'll open the wine."
Jessica met them at the door with hugs that lasted a beat too long, her arms tight around Heather's thin shoulders, her cheek pressed briefly against Paul's stubbled jaw.
"God, it's beautiful," Heather breathed, stepping inside and turning in a slow circle. "Jess, how did you find this place?"
"I have my ways."
"She has a spreadsheet," Brad said, appearing with glasses of red wine. "Multiple spreadsheets, actually. Cross-referenced."
"Some of us believe in organization," Jessica said, but she was smiling now, really smiling, and for a moment it felt like the old days. Before careers and mortgages and the weight of what they'd done had settled over all of them like a shroud.
Greg arrived next, his massive frame filling the doorway as he stomped snow from his boots. Beside him stood a woman Jessica had only seen in Instagram photos: Tina, his girlfriend of eight months, all dark curls and nervous energy.
"Welcome to the team," Brad said, shaking Tina's hand with the easy charm that had gotten him through countless client dinners and corporate retreats.
"Thanks for having me," Tina said. Her voice was softer than Jessica had expected, almost apologetic. "I know it's weird, crashing a reunion like this."
"Not crashing," Jessica assured her. "Greg's been talking about you for months. We're excited to finally meet you."
It wasn't entirely true—there had been discussions about whether to include her, whether it was wise to bring an outsider into their carefully maintained circle—but Jessica had made the executive decision. New blood might be exactly what they needed. Someone who didn't know, who couldn't look at them with the weight of shared history in their eyes.
Monica slipped in almost unnoticed, as she always did. One moment the entryway was empty, and the next she was there, stamping snow from her boots, her canvas bag slung over one shoulder. She'd driven up alone, as she always did everything alone these days.
"Monica!" Jessica pulled her into a hug that the other woman tolerated more than returned. "How was the drive?"
"Long." Monica's voice was soft, barely above a whisper. She'd always been quiet, but in the years since college, she'd retreated further and further into herself. Her art had become her entire world—dark, abstract pieces that sold for thousands in galleries Jessica couldn't afford to set foot in.
"Well, you're here now. That's what matters."
Monica's eyes swept the room, cataloging faces, lingering on each one for just a moment before moving on. When her gaze reached the windows, the mountain beyond, something flickered across her features. Recognition, maybe. Or something darker.
"Yes," she said quietly. "I'm here."
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Richie arrived three hours late, as everyone had known he would, bursting through the door in a cloud of snow and noise and the unmistakable smell of airport whiskey.
"The gang's all here!" he bellowed, arms spread wide. "Did you miss me? Don't answer that—I know you did."
He was bigger than Jessica remembered, his college athlete's frame softened by years of expense account dinners and client entertainment. But his smile was the same—too wide, too bright, daring the world to challenge him.
"You're late," Heather said, but she was hugging him anyway, letting him lift her off her feet and spin her in a circle.
"I'm fashionable," he corrected. "There's a difference. Now where's the booze? I've been on three planes in the last twelve hours, and I'm dangerously close to sober."
The evening unfolded the way Jessica had planned it, at least at first. Wine flowed. Stories were shared—carefully curated stories, the kind that glossed over the harder years and focused on promotions and vacations and surface-level accomplishments. Tina laughed at all the right moments, asked all the right questions, and if she noticed the undercurrents running beneath the conversation, she was too polite to mention it.
By eleven, they'd moved to the living room, arranged in a loose circle around the fireplace. Someone—Richie, of course—had produced a bottle of tequila, and someone else—Greg, probably—had suggested a drinking game.
"Never have I ever," Richie announced, settling into the largest armchair with the air of a king claiming his throne. "Classic rules. You've done the thing, you drink. You haven't, you're a coward and you drink anyway."
"That's not how the rules work," Paul said, but he was smiling, and for the first time all evening, he and Heather were sitting close enough that their shoulders touched.
The game started innocently enough. Never have I ever skipped a class. Never have I ever lied on a resume. Never have I ever kissed someone in this room. That last one earned groans and eye rolls as nearly everyone drank, old college hookups surfacing like bodies from a lake.
Jessica felt herself relaxing, the tequila warming her from the inside, smoothing the edges of her anxiety. Maybe this would work. Maybe they could have one weekend without the past intruding, without the weight of what they'd carried for five years pressing down on them until they couldn't breathe.
Then Richie leaned forward, his eyes glittering in the firelight, and said, "Never have I ever kept a secret that could destroy my entire life."
The room went still.
Jessica watched as, one by one, glasses lifted and lowered. Brad. Heather. Paul. Greg. Monica. Even Richie himself, smirking as he drank. Only Tina remained motionless, her brow furrowed in confusion.
"What kind of secrets are we talking about?" she asked, trying to keep her tone light. "Tax evasion? Infidelity?"
"Worse," Richie said. "Much worse. Right, guys? We're talking about the Brandon thing."
The temperature in the room dropped ten degrees. Jessica saw Heather's face go white, saw Paul's hand clench around his glass hard enough that she worried it might shatter. Brad had gone very still beside her, his breath shallow and controlled.
"Richie," Jessica said, her voice sharp. "Don't."
"What?" He spread his hands, all innocence. "We're all friends here. And Tina's practically family now, right? She should know what she's getting into."
"Who's Brandon?" Tina asked.
The silence that followed was so complete that Jessica could hear the wind outside, the creak of the old chalet settling around them. She opened her mouth to deflect, to change the subject, to do anything to break the tension—
"Brandon was our friend," Monica said. Her voice was soft, almost dreamy, but it cut through the room like a blade. "He died five years ago. On a ski trip. Just like this one."
Tina's face went pale. "Oh God. I'm so sorry. I didn't—"
"It was an accident," Brad said quickly. "A terrible accident. We don't need to talk about it."
"No," Richie agreed, his smirk fading into something harder. "We never do."
The party fractured after that. Heather claimed a headache and retreated upstairs. Paul followed a few minutes later, though whether to comfort her or continue whatever argument they'd been having all day, Jessica couldn't say. Greg and Tina made awkward excuses about being tired from the drive. Monica simply vanished, as she always did, slipping away without a word.
Jessica found herself alone in the kitchen, washing glasses she'd already washed twice, listening to the wind howl against the windows.
"You okay?" Brad appeared in the doorway, his tie loosened, his face drawn.
"Fine."
"Jess."
"I said I'm fine." She turned off the water, gripping the edge of the sink until her knuckles went white. "Why did he have to bring that up? Why can't he ever just leave it alone?"
"Because he's Richie. Because he's a selfish bastard who doesn't think about anyone but himself." Brad moved closer, his hand warm on her shoulder. "It doesn't change anything. What happened, happened. We dealt with it. We moved on."
"Did we?" She turned to face him, searching his eyes for something she couldn't name. "Did we really move on, Brad? Because it doesn't feel like moving on. It feels like drowning in slow motion."
He didn't answer. He didn't have to. They both knew the truth—that they'd been drowning for five years, that every breath was a struggle, that the weight of what they'd done was slowly pulling them under.
"I'm going to check on Richie," Jessica said finally. "Make sure he hasn't passed out somewhere."
"Leave him. He can take care of himself."
"Can he?" She grabbed her coat from the hook by the door. "Because from where I'm standing, none of us can."
The deck was freezing, the wind cutting through her jacket like it wasn't there. She could see the hot tub steaming in the darkness, could hear the soft bubbling of the jets. Richie had mentioned wanting to soak, to "clear his head" before bed.
"Richie?" she called, stepping closer. "Richie, it's freezing out here. Come inside."
No answer. The steam rose and swirled, obscuring her view.
"Richie, I'm serious. You're going to catch pneumonia, and I am not driving you to a hospital in this—"
She reached the edge of the hot tub. She looked down.
And she started to scream.